Survival is tough sometimes in New York City. The streets can rival those of any battlefield if you're ever unlucky. Crime has been going up like mad in the past month. They say it's probably due to the frenzy that everyone is in, this craziness has got to stop. I never thought that I would be so weak and succumb to something like this, some story jumped on by the media so that it infuriates society and becomes part of Americana. I thought that I had the strength to go against the flow. Do you remember the O. J. Simpson trial a few years back. I mean Geraldo Rivera is still doing his daily talk show on some aspect of the trial. Or the Jon Benet Ramsey case. I mean c'mon, many kids are killed every day, why does the media decide to jump on this bandwagon? It was such a relief when her parents were convicted, just for the fact that I didn't have to see any more pictures of a six year old who looks about 30. It's impractical for society to trust the media as blindly as it does. But this doesn't change the fact that I'm still blacking out and I'm waking up sick and somewhere else from where I started. It just doesn't make any sense.